Helena Falabino

I've been keeping a diary on an irregular basis since 1998; in 2002 it started being made of photographs as well.

As opposite to a diary, where I write exactly what I want to express, with photography I let go of all control and later analyse the photos searching for significance. This is why I relate so much to the concept of technological subconscious theorised by Franco Vaccari. This is for me a spontaneous and partly inscrutable generation of images; It's a way to work that I cannot give up and that changes over the years.

The black&white photographs form a constellation representing many states of mind of teenage and early adulthood: rage, refusal of one's own domestic environment, the imprisonment in imposed roles, solitude and the inability of expressing one's feelings.

Colour represents the discovery of one's own shades, which have been pulsing for years in an emotional underground. These photographs are made of casualties put together like in a dream, taking inspiration from the day that just passed, from domestic landscapes or past and present routines. Colour means recognising yourself, moving about the world with a new awareness.